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February 26, 2003
8D
steve found this, i like it....i have copied the text:
1)You have to tell a girl how you feel about her...we make no assumptions.
2)It never hurts to work out...take your own advice.
3)Girls like sex just as much, if not more than guys.
4)Not all girls masturbate...we just don't and no we are not lying.
5)We hate porn.
6)Hmmmm...guys in Jeeps...yummmm...
7)Girls need food, water, and compliments to survive.
8)We think about you all the time.
9)Being able to make us laugh is so much more important than how much you can bench-press.
10)We may think you are gay if you wear tighty-whities on a regular basis.
11)Hold our hand.
12)No backseat drivers...NONE.
13)Girls generally don't like giving head, so you better be ready to reciprocate if and when you get it.
14)We are not your all-night restaurant.
15)Anything we say or do during that 4 days to a week each month cannot be held against us.
16)If you hold our hand while you are driving we will be thoroughly impressed...especially if it's a stick.
17)Under no circumstances will we have a threesome.
18)You look hot in hooded articles of clothing.
19)If you think for any reason that we don't like you then we probably don't.
20)Having us over while you and your friends play video games does not count as "quality time".
21)Just because we groom ourselves on a regular basis does not mean we're high maintanance.
22)Never comment on how much a girl eats...ever.
23)Keep in mind that we withold sex when we're mad at you, so you might wanna get around to apologizing...
24)You just can't force us to like sports...especially those associated with the WWF.
25)We're typically smarter than you...so get over it and stop whining when we get better grades than you.
26)If you do not own a wife-beater, stop reading this list, and go invest in one...right now.
27)The ability to play the guitar will help you get laid.
28)We're sorry, Brad Pitt just IS hot...get over it!!!
29)Walks in the rain, kisses on the forehead, and cooking dinner for us will get you everywhere.
30)Just because we're in a serious relationship doesn't mean we plan to marry you someday, so stop being so damn scared!!!
31)If you're developing such good finger skills playing video games, you better put them to good use sometimes.
32)Anything you do or say to another girl that you wouldn't want us to know about is considered cheating.
33)If we can admit that we're wrong, you'd better be able to do the same.
34)The excuse "I can't dance" is unacceptable...we'll appreciate the simple fact that you're trying.
35)On that note, if you refuse to dance, expect us to dance with other guys...and lots of them.
36)Think before you speak...it'll make a world of difference.
37)Not all girls kiss on the first date, get over it...we're creatures of mystery.
38)Make fun of our clothes...prepare to die.
39)We don't always expect you to pay for us, but it doesn't hurt to at least offer everyone once in a while.
40)Tell us we're beautiful.
41)The "little things" in a relationship are really the biggest.
42)Foreplay isn't something we should have to ask for...it's a prerequisite.
43)Don't screw us over...especially if we have an older brother or protective guy friends...they will hunt you down and kill you.
44)If you're gonna look at other girls, at least make sure we don't see you do it.
45)Just because we're still just "hanging out" doesn't make it ok to sleep with your ex-girlfriend, friend with benefits, etc.
46)No girl just wants to be your "friend with benefits".
47)We're sensitive too...be gentle (and we're not talking about our hearts here guys).
48)One word when it comes to smoking...quit.
49)We reserve the right to hate all of your ex-girlfriends.
50)If we happen to trip, fall, etc, while wearing the exceptionally high shoes that we love, go ahead and laugh...we will be...that is unless we hurt ourselves...
Posted by Maggie at 11:44 PM | Comments (0)
that neal....hes a good kid....
that neal....hes a good kid....
Posted by Maggie at 10:52 PM | Comments (0)
i taught tonight....the kids had
i taught tonight....the kids had to do evals on the teachers tonight.....lecture time was cut from 2 hr to 1 hr 40 min.....hard to even do in 2 hr....made through all the info, not all the passages....when class was over my students applauded
Posted by Maggie at 10:27 PM | Comments (0)
February 25, 2003
jesus fucking christ!
jesus fucking christ!
Posted by Maggie at 10:34 PM | Comments (0)
$$$$$$
my mom is a nice lady
largely because of grandpa's death, and the days around it, my cell phone bill from last month is...shall we say....fucking insane.
i asked if she would like to made a contribution to the 'maggies cell phone fund' and she said yes. then asked how much higher it was than i thought.
to reiterate--my mom is a nice lady.
Posted by Maggie at 4:04 PM | Comments (0)
PsychoNeal: whathappend? magwin: she got
PsychoNeal: whathappend?
magwin: she got pneumonia again
magwin: her temp is 102.6
PsychoNeal: when was the last time she had it?
magwin: year and a half/two years ago
magwin: so, it is "because of" her chemo
PsychoNeal: ...and I remember you saying that was bad
magwin: aparrently they put her on an antibiotic whihc is DESIGNED for people with pneumonia who have recently done chemo
magwin: yeah, she almost died last time
PsychoNeal: is she doing alright htis time?
magwin: aparrently her oncologist isnt *too* worried
magwin: and shes not in ICU
magwin: though, last time she didnt start in ICU either
PsychoNeal: hmm.....did they get to it earlier this time?
magwin: i swear, if she doesnt get better soon i think i will explode!
magwin: well...yes...
magwin: the thing is that on xray it doersnt show up
magwin: but thats cause what shows up on a chest film for pneumonia is white cell gook in your lungs
magwin: your white cell count should be between 5000 & 10000
magwin: hers is 600
PsychoNeal: kiw
PsychoNeal: low
magwin: admittedly, this is "good" as it means that [since she has leukemia--a white cell disease] she is not over producing them
magwin: hwoever, within a few days she has gome from 1000 to 600
magwin: so yeah
magwin: thats that
magwin: and amy is mad at mom cause mom didnt call amy
magwin: mom emailed kary
magwin: and amy found out when she went to visit wendy and one of the nurses said wendy was in the hospital
magwin: so i guess amy left mom a bitchy v.m. saying "aparrently you dont know my cell phone number"
PsychoNeal: hmm
magwin: which would be valid
PsychoNeal: She doesn't?
magwin: if she ever 1) had her cell on 2) answered it OR (not and, but or) 3) checked her v.ml.
magwin: no
magwin: she doesnt
magwin: most people would, she doesnt
magwin: in addition, mom was going to tell her at 1 in class [amy is in moms class] but amy wasnt there
PsychoNeal: ahh...did she leave a message at her mom's place?
magwin: o
magwin: amy doesnt chec vm there either
PsychoNeal: hmm....so she skiped....
PsychoNeal: Then uhh---
PsychoNeal: Sounds like your mom did what she could...?
magwin: do you see what i mean about not being a valid concern coming from amy
magwin: she makes me so mad
magwin: here is what kary said about amy and being mad at mom
Amy thinks she's beyond reproach, which is so irritating. If we can't NORMALLY get ahold of her on her cell phone (which we can't -- that's been established), it's pretty normal to not try, especially given that KT would see her at 1:00, anyway.
I want to smack her sometimes.
PsychoNeal: I would let it go--everyone knows now.
magwin: i konw
magwin: but amy will be shitty about it for several days
magwin: and she is dumb
PsychoNeal: probably--just let it go and concentrate on her mom
magwin: i understand what you are saying
magwin: that is fine
magwin: but..bah!
PsychoNeal: which sounds like she is going to be fine with the pnemonia thing.
PsychoNeal: penumonia
PsychoNeal: pn--I give up
magwin: v0v
magwin: the last time she went in the hospital it started out as 'not a big deal
PsychoNeal: ...and bad shit happend....but this is not the last time--so stop thinking that it is.
magwin: im not
PsychoNeal: uh huh
magwin: you try to give me pep talks when it is unnecessary
PsychoNeal: well you give me the impression they are necessary
magwin: all im saying in saying last time it wasnt that bad to start is that saying 'she is/will be fine' is WAY to early to say that
magwin: especially since she is rather immuno suppressed
PsychoNeal: ok...well---ok
magwin: what?
PsychoNeal: nevermind---you are right.
magwin: no.
magwin: what/
PsychoNeal: To me it just looks like you are looking at the white count rather than the early entrance to the hospital--looking at the negative.
magwin: ok
magwin: but do you understand that her white cells ar 10% of what they should be
magwin: and white cells are what is used to fight infection?
magwin: so she is starting behind the game
PsychoNeal: I do.
magwin: alright
magwin: i understand what you are saying, i just think that if you knew more about her medical history and had been there and seen some of the things she has been through in the last seven years, you would realize that even if it is "ok" there is still a more than reasonable cause for concern
PsychoNeal: I also have this whole belief system where I generally believe the best will come out in the end (unless it some how involves me).
PsychoNeal: I am not saying not to be concerned.
magwin: exACTly
magwin: well
magwin: wendys health involves me!
Posted by Maggie at 3:40 PM | Comments (0)
February 24, 2003
sarah Dude, I just went
sarah
Dude, I just went to yer lj and I WANT A MACARONI PENGUIN.
They weigh like ten pounds and are less than two feet tall and Very, Very Cute.
Eek!
me
OK
Lets get one!
sarah
Can we name him "Slappy"? As in "Oh, that's my pet Slappy. Slappy the Penguin."
My Aunt Faith would write children's stories about him.
sarah
And I'm wearing silk boxer shorts with PINEAPPLES on them. I mean, come on, how much more fun does it GET?
me
How about penguins wearing those?
THAT would be more fun
sarah
Hey! I'm fun. No, really.
Besides, penguins don't have idenifiable legs. They could maybe wear mini-skirts, but nothing with an inseam. Don't you go buying a penguin and expect me to give up my silk pineappled boxer shorts, Maggie Win!
Posted by Maggie at 4:46 PM | Comments (0)
magwin:do you like that dress?
magwin:do you like that dress?
magwin:[in general, and do you think its somethign that would look good on?]
PsychoNeal:I can't change the colors....
magwin:you cant change them
magwin:but, you can look at teh swatches
magwin:thats the best for now
PsychoNeal:I like the dress...it looks swishy
magwin:i dont know waht that means.
PsychoNeal:It is positive...go with it
magwin:would you say you didnt like it?
magwin:would you say 'maggie, its neat, i dont think it would look good on your htough'?
PsychoNeal:I would--for instance flower dress----crap...doesn't say Maggie...this dress...nice. I wish I could change the color on the dress....
magwin:well
magwin:i mean
magwin:its not about 'saying maggie
magwin:as its not my weedding
PsychoNeal:I know...
magwin:and 4 other people will also be wearing the dress
PsychoNeal:true...I have no idea what it would like on them--so don't ask.... =P
magwin:i wouldnt ask
magwin:dol you think its something that i could wear though
magwin:nevermind
PsychoNeal:I think you could.
magwin:whatever
PsychoNeal:You have nice shoulders...neck....
Posted by Maggie at 4:39 PM | Comments (0)
February 23, 2003
neal finds neat stuff!!!
neal finds neat stuff!!!
Posted by Maggie at 10:29 PM | Comments (0)
February 22, 2003
me: you don't sleep much,
me: you don't sleep much, do you?
neal: well, i had a cup of coffee, but also, its hard to sleep when i'm in bed with a beautiful woman
you're asleep so...you won't hear this....but.....i am so falling for you. i never would have imagined that there was someone this wonderful this close to me for so long and i never knew it....
Posted by Maggie at 3:53 PM | Comments (0)
February 21, 2003
this is pretty interesting.....
this is pretty interesting.....
Posted by Maggie at 5:43 PM | Comments (0)
?!?!?!?!
today was the gross anatomy exam. the written part of it is done on computer. the information is stored somewhere on the network--which was down.
the first half of the class lost their info half way through the test, and, aparrently, it was showing people their scores [ie:34/2050 or something like that]--and they could then go back, change answers, and continue to check their score. this was right before the network went down. it went down right as the 2nd half of the of the class [i was in this group] was about to start the exam.
anyway, the network was working, then it wasnt, then it was, then it wasnt...this went on for 30 minutes. they profs came in saying 'ok, sit tight' or 'were having a caucus [actual word used] now to determine the plan'.
"the plan," in the end, as announced by the course director, was that everyone got a 100% on the written portion of the exam.
this is unbelievable. and great, cause, i dont feel anyone would be shocked to hear that this is better th an i would have scored on my own...
Posted by Maggie at 5:36 PM | Comments (0)
so last night i had
so last night i had a dream that i was sitting in my kitchen in my apartment--except, it was actually wendy's kitchen, rather, my kitchen in my apartment looked not like my actual kitchen, but wendy's--and neal shows up...and he comes in and is like 'im tired' and im like 'ok, so, go take a nap'.
while this is happening i am eating peanuts from a huge bowl. except, they look like pistachio's...i mean, in the dream reference was made to peanuts, but they clearly looked like pistachio's.
so, neal is like 'ok' and i offer him a peanut/pistachio...he says 'no thanks' then grabs the entire bowl and heads off to my room. i stop him, steal the peanut/pistachio's back and go back to the kitchen.
thats it!
then i also remembered a dream that i had two nights ago. beth and i were hainging out with anna nicole smith...and she was goin through her closet cleaning out stuff. she had eleventy quatrillion purses and was getting rid of some. so, she gave me two kate spades that she had never used.
[unfortunately, neither was the cute rainbow stripe like i want....but...v0v..... one was like a kelly green/spring green/yellow/light blue plaid thing...and, the other one i think was brown, leather, i dont remember]
and then i said to her 'you are so generous.'
thats it!
Posted by Maggie at 9:59 AM | Comments (0)
February 20, 2003
oh that sarah
sarah
I'm not a dork! I'm a....manimalularity.
me
I'm not a dork! I'm a....manimalularity.<---???
sarah
Yeah I made it up.
I was going to say "manimal" but I didn't want to use a sexually/genderally ambiguous word (me being a girl), so I figured that tacking on "-ularity" would soften the whole word and make it more mammal-like and generally more fun to say.
me
Then make up a definition
sarah
a peculiar animal of the human species (manimal= man + animal as in humankind, ularity as in "pecULIARITY")
that is, a homo sapiens odd duck
seperate thread
sarah
I'm going to start bedding down for the night, with a little embryology to get me ready to sleep.
me
Youll be out in what, 3.14159 seconds?
sarah
Actually, I only pass out in tenths of seconds, so I'm afraid that we'll be rounding that...unfamiliar number to 3.1 seconds, thanks. I can only handle two sigfigs.
Nerds unite!
Posted by Maggie at 11:32 PM | Comments (0)
February 19, 2003
Steve:I am wearing a suit
Steve:I am wearing a suit
me:?!
me:rubber?
Steve:actually latex
Steve:doesn't chaff as much
me:OH
me:sorry
me:silly kme
Steve:some people might think I'm crazy, but I'm really not!
me:why are you wearing a suit?
me:or, is it your birhtday suit
me:cause, that doesnt count
Steve:interview w/ the target peeps today at 4pm
Steve:eastern standard time
me:i have never seen you in a suit
Steve:I look quite dapper
me:while i would have assumed you owned one i did not know this
me:i was going to ask if you looked dashing and/or like james bond
me:what color is it?
Steve:charcol grey/gray
me:OOH!
me:what color shir?
me:single or double breasted?
Steve:white
me:tie?
Steve:single, I think
me:how many rows of buttons are on the jacket?
Steve:yes
me:[rather, columns]
Steve:one row
me:ok
Steve:/column
me:thats single.
me:tie?
Steve:the tie is blue and greenish w/ some white in it
me:any specific pattern? or just plain color?
Steve:rectangles of sorts
me:shoes?
Steve: black
me: belt?
Steve:magenta vynl
me:lipstick?
Steve:my earings look great
me:purse?
me:are you wearin ga belt?
Steve:no, european carry all
Steve:I am wearing a corset
me:NICE!
me:lace up in tyhe front or back?
Steve:now that I'm all laced up, I need to totter to class
me:youre weiaring a suit to class?
me:damn b school kids!
Steve:back, the only realway :-)
Steve:yes, I have my interview at 4
Steve:after classes, so I wear suit to class
Steve:fuck you bob
me:alright
me:8)
Steve:ok, me must go
Steve:have a good one
Posted by Maggie at 9:43 AM | Comments (0)
me: mom--do you have any
me: mom--do you have any suggestions about how i can make myself less nervous today?
mom: yeah....have a glass of wine........do you haveany wine?
me: no....[jokingly] how about a shot of vodka?
mom: try it.
me: um....why wine?
mom: it relaxes people.....______ would always do that before she taught....
*footnote: conversation transpired at 8:58 am.
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February 18, 2003
quandry posed by steve
how do I get blueish/gray belly button lint from white shirts?
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February 17, 2003
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February 14, 2003
"happy valentines day? will you
"happy valentines day? will you be my valentine? (even though the holiday is clearly a continuation of a pagan harvest festival and spoiled by corporate greed)"
Posted by Maggie at 10:38 AM | Comments (0)
steve sent me this, when he saw the jebus fish
stolen for you from the new york times
It all began on that fateful day when one fish evolved legs. Suddenly transformed from a silver swimmer into a bold pioneer, this creature stood on the threshold of what would become an explosion of evolutionary diversification. But this flowering of forms would be played out, not in the muck of primordial seashores, but on automobiles.
This is the story of two small, plastic, adhesive plaques and all that came forth and multiplied after them: the Jesus fish and the Darwin fish.
Familiar to drivers everywhere, car fish and their spawn are the soldiers in an evolutionary arms race that has given rise to a host of strange new creatures and what some say is an entirely new form of self-expression.
This menagerie is not only diverse, but highly prolific - and profitable. Taxonomists of car fish say that the Darwin fish alone reproduces at a rate of some 75,000 new fish a year, worth nearly half a million dollars, retail.
The fish has long been a Christian symbol. Long before there were automobiles, legend has it, the fish was scratched in the sand by persecuted first-century Christians as a secret sign.
Different explanations are offered for why the fish became such a widespread Christian symbol. One is that the first letters of the Greek words for "Jesus Christ, God's Son, Savior," form an acrostic that is the Greek word for fish.
The mists of history may obscure exactly when and where car fish first appeared, but in the modern era it is clear that by the 1980's a fish drawn simply with two curved lines containing the word "Jesus" had colonized numerous cars as a symbol of Christian belief.
By the late 1980's, however, a new generation had emerged in mutant form. At first glance, the new fish appeared the same, until one looked closer and saw that the fish said Darwin inside and had two feet sticking out from below, apparently trumpeting the car owner's belief in evolution.
The response to the new fish was swift and sure. A Truth fish could soon be seen devouring a Darwin fish. Or sometimes a Darwin fish could be spotted upside down on a car, its little legs poking into the air, dead.
Evolution, whether natural or otherwise, is notoriously difficult to stop. Eventually car fish radiation produced the Evolve fish, which is a tool-user (holding a wrench), the Gefilte fish, the Hindu fish (with an udder), the Pagan fish (ideal for the pagans who insist that the fish was stolen from them by the Christians, who are still fuming that the Darwin-enthusiasts stole it from them). There is even a flaming Satan fish.
Some say they've spotted a shark that says Lawyer, a Rasta fish smoking a pipe and Lutefisk fish (a kind of cod soaked in lye - the haggis of Norway) as well as increasingly diverse and enigmatic car organisms like dolphins, dead fish, aliens and chili peppers.
Aliens and hot peppers may not seem to have any direct connection to fish, but when it comes to plaques on cars evolution proceeds in leaps that are completely unpredictable, perhaps because of the kind of selective pressure at work.
While natural selection drives biological change, the evolution of car fish seems to have been driven by ideological one-upsmanship at first, and then by market forces and irrepressible silliness. The newest species is
the Sushi fish, a truly odd symbolic development in which the fish actually represents a fish.
"We finally made one after thousands of people asked for it," said Gary Betchan, who is a co-owner of EvolveFISH, a Web site that sells an elaborate array of the creatures. "People are always coming up with a new twist. If we think we can sell them, we make it."
Mr. Betchan, whose Web site also offers Nunzilla, a wind-up fire-breathing nun and a Wash Away Your Sins soap, says he is pursuing the car fish business for more than the money.
"We are out to change the world," he said. "We want to make it a better place."
So what exactly are people thinking when they stick these things on their cars?
Dr. Tom Lessl may be the only one who knows.
Dr. Lessl, who studies the use of symbols, is a professor in the speech communication department at the University of Georgia. He has undertaken a study of car fish, and wore out two pairs of shoes walking the nation's parking lots in search of them.
Every time he found a Darwin fish, he left a survey form on the car.
"There are two views," he said of the Darwin fish camp. "One group was openly hostile to traditional religious beliefs," he said, and the other seemed to believe in peaceful symbolic coexistence.
Dr. Lessl said some Darwin fish owners had so much to say that some went well beyond the single page provided for answers to as many as three single-spaced typed pages. Some described the fish as a kind of defense, a way for persecuted atheists to fight back against the onslaught of religion, something like its first use by persecuted Christians.
But, he said, he found many people who said they displayed the Darwin fish as a symbol of the harmonious coexistence of Darwinian ideas and religion.
Dr. Lessl says such marriages of science and religion have been a familiar refrain since the days of the Enlightenment, one continuous intellectual movement that has led through the writings of Francis Bacon in the 17th century on up to plastic fish.
Not surprisingly, the Darwin fish has stirred controversy around the question of the creator, specifically its creator.
What agreement there is about who created the Darwin fish, a question that has been muddled by lawsuits, points to Chris Gilman, president of Global Effects Inc., which makes costumes and props for Hollywood.
Mr. Gilman said he came up with the idea in the early 1980's when he was talking with some friends about how to promote evolution the way that religion promotes itself.
"So I said you put feet on the Jesus fish," he said, "and people said, `Ha ha, that's funny.' People kept bugging me about making them for years."
Eventually, Mr. Gilman had the fish manufactured and handed the whole enterprise off to a friend, Daphne Bianchi, president of Evolution Design Inc., which trademarked the Darwin fish.
The rest is evolution.
Posted by Maggie at 12:57 AM | Comments (0)
kary's mike is so cool!
Posted by Maggie at 12:41 AM | Comments (0)
February 13, 2003
reasons neal thinks i am crazy/insane
1. celestial objects
2. Paranoia of conspiracy
3. Dog=Alien
4. Make out with dog
5. Lack of good ideas
6. Jason Lee "issue"
7. Hand is not labeled sane
8. item removed to protect the innocent
**note**
#1--not all celestial objects, just those with faces!!
#4--everyone who has animals cuddles with them at some point, as long as its not a hippopotamus.....
Posted by Maggie at 10:42 AM | Comments (0)
February 12, 2003
sexy mother fucker!
quoth the onion:
U.S. Council Of Coolness Releases Formal Statement On Prince
WASHINGTON, DC--On Monday, the U.S. Council of Coolness released its long-awaited ruling on Prince, declaring the recording artist "provisionally cool" by a 13-11 margin. "This was a more difficult decision than it should have been," the 240-page report read. "In the end, however, albums like 1999 and Sign O' The Times are sufficiently brilliant to offset such padded late-period dorkfests as Rave Un2 The Joy Fantastic and The Rainbow Children." The Council of Coolness warned that the decision could be reversed if Prince records one more rap in which he declares himself "super-fonky" or "2 jammin' 4 U."
in a word or two its you i wanna do
no not your body your mind you fool
comere babe! yeah!
you sexy mother fucker
-->how can you argue with that!?
Posted by Maggie at 11:57 PM | Comments (0)
steve and neal are making plans for a girl...
beth posted this:
So I call Maggie to which she answers the phone as if exasperated and given up all hope "I can't find your apartment."
quite some time ago....it was funny....if you would have heard the way she said when talkin to me 'as if give up all hope' you would have laughed too....
im not procrastinating...I SWEAR
Posted by Maggie at 11:20 PM | Comments (0)
hmm
so, my car has a 6 cd changer....i think it is moderately interesting what 6 cds are in now
1. guster---lost and gone forever
2. saves the day---stay what you are
3. bnl---cd i made with my favorite songs [well, disc 1 of 2 of my fav songs]
4. tori amos---little earthquakes
5. weezer---pinkerton
6. jimmy eat world---jimmy eat world
Posted by Maggie at 5:13 PM | Comments (0)
February 9, 2003
shes got a tattoo and two pet snakes
very hard weekend....there are reasons that i am known as the emotionally unstable [not in a psychotic way, but in a very emotional person way] one.....
regarding all non-funeral-ular things....it was a great weekend.....great
dont misunderstand the 'happy'--i will miss grandpa very much....but.....so many good fun things.....
rose 'forgave' me for being a bitch to her. at first i was appalled....but...i dont know....she has grown on me more in the last five days than in the prior 22 years.....but.....of course, that is the way that shit works......
but....generally.... 8)
Posted by Maggie at 9:48 PM | Comments (0)
February 6, 2003
....
beth bought me the jimmy eat world cd cause track 6 [which our good friend amazon.com tells me is "hear you me"-->im sure most of you know how i am with song titles] had a part that said
a song for a heart so big
god wouldnt let it live
may angels lead you in
and she has been listening to it a lot recently.....i was listening to it, and this is the part that jumped out at me
So what would you think of me now
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance
May angels lead you in
Posted by Maggie at 9:35 AM | Comments (0)
February 5, 2003
PsychoNeal: I didn't mention this---I
PsychoNeal: I didn't mention this---I guess because I kind of assumed this---but I would like to do something this weekend at some point....lemme know if that is cool?
Posted by Maggie at 8:31 AM | Comments (0)
February 3, 2003
maggiewin (6:34 PM) : im
maggiewin (6:34 PM) :
im goin to be in town tomorrow night...
Harbinger (6:35 PM) :
?
maggiewin (6:35 PM) :
not to celebrate my sisters birthday, but for everyone in my family to go out to eat [except my dad, who will be in buffalo...]
dont ask, i dont get it either
maggiewin (6:35 PM) :
then im coming in thursday night
the memorial service is friday morning
and im goin gto stay at least till sunday, maybe sunday night too cause i dont have class monday....
Harbinger (6:36 PM) :
K
maggiewin (6:36 PM) :
you approve of that rough outline?"
Harbinger (6:36 PM) :
I approve...for the most part.
maggiewin (6:36 PM) :
for the most part?
what is not to approve of?
Harbinger (6:38 PM) :
Well---I would like to do something with ya at some time.
maggiewin (6:38 PM) :
i was plannin on it....
maggiewin (6:38 PM) :
be more psychic! 8)
Posted by Maggie at 6:40 PM | Comments (0)
stolen--shocking....i know
thought this was interesting....some of the questions are things i have been thinking the last four or so days....others are things i sometimes think about....
What do you do when the rug is pulled out from under your feet?
How hard do you fall when you had no idea it was going to be pulled out as soon as it was?
When you hit the ground, can you figure out which hurts more, your body or your ego or your heart?
Have you ever asked yourself, "What's next?" because you don't think you can handle much more of this game? yes
Have you ever tried to explain something to someone, but you couldn't because you were crying too hard? yes
Have you ever wondered how you'll ever get to sleep tonight? yes
Do you know what it's like to stare at the ceiling blurred by tears like glossy blankets on your eyes? yes
Have you ever been so grateful for the intense support and ear of a friend? many times
Have you ever wanted to take away the pain of your friend long enough so they could get some rest? yes
Do you know what it's like to think, "Is this really happening to me?" yes
Have you ever been so exhausted from carrying the weight of heartache that you lose your will to complain? shockingly, yes
Has anyone ever said words to you that were the exact words you had most feared you'd hear? yes
Has it ever been impossible to imagine what it was like when things were good? not really
Have you ever wondered if someone is lying to you because the truth is so humiliating to you they can't even spare to tell you? i have heard about it for friends...
Have you ever kicked yourself for being right in the first place but letting it get to where it is? yes
Do you regret things? who doesnt? though i mostly try to 'learn' and not 'regret'
Do you know what it's like to regret developing something that would only end up hurting you later?
Have you ever felt like such a fool that when others' insult you, you let their harsh words seep into your skin right to your soul? of course...im me
Are you familiar with that feeling of not knowing how long it's going to take this time to forget and move on? yes
Have you ever gotten tired of being understanding and forgiving? yep
Have you ever just wanted to be mad and hurtful? a few times
Have you ever been sick and tired of the same old shit? often
Do you know what it's like to hate? kinda
Do you know what it's like to want to hate because it feels better than admitting you're hurt? yeah
Don't you hate it when someone's made a mistake that you know they'll regret one day? yes
Don't you ever just want to stop them and slap sense into them? yes
Do you believe that awful things are blessings in disguise? sometimes
Have you ever kept a secret? much to the surprise of my friends, yes
Have you ever felt the truest form of honesty and completion through ambiguity? kinda
Do you know what it's like to need to share when you crave privacy? oh god yes
Do you remember thinking, "Maybe it's me?" sure
Do you remember then thinking, "It's not me,"? ok
Can you imagine life the way it will be now when things were another way for so long? not really
You know what it's like to wish you could speed up time? yep
Has anyone ever made you feel stupid when that's the last thing they wanted to do? yes...lead to a huge shenanigan
Do you know how much it hurts when you realize you've been lying to yourself? yes
Has anyone ever been careless with your gifts, be them words or trust? i guess...
Can you ever trust anyone again? of course...
Can you ever trust your own judgment again? that one took longer to get back
Have you ever said to yourself, "Not again"? many times
Have you ever longed for the days when you thought you were in love with someone who loved you? havent most people?
Has anyone ever taken back the L-word? not taken back per se...
Don't you hate it when people were right? YES!
Don't you hate it when you're wrong? am i wrong?
Don't you hate how unsympathetic and judgmental strangers can be to whom they dedicate so much time?
Has anyone ever said, "I told you so," or "no wonder" because they think it's funny, when a day will come that that person will feel the same pain and would die if anyone ever treated them the way they treated others? yea...but im sure i have too
Have you ever thought to yourself that you quit?
Have you ever just wanted to give up completely? um-hmm
Have you ever been so torn between the emotions of wanting to kiss someone and slap them across the face? thankfully, no
Have you ever thought that things would be different if you had done things differently? seriously, hasnt everone?
Have you ever been completely unsatisfied with how things have turned out? not comPLETEly
Have you ever just longed for silence? occasionally
Has silence ever deafened you? yeah...but especially with tinnitus
Have you ever forgotten what it's like to wake up excited about something? not in the recent past
Have you ever woken up and temporarily forgot what made you cry yourself to sleep? yep
Have you ever then remembered a second later and the whole world collapsed in again before you've even gotten out of bed? saturday
Have you ever asked why even when you know why because the explanation doesn't seem fair or right at all? many time
Isn't it scary when you want to hold someone special so badly but you can't for so many reasons? not scary, but not fun
Have you ever found an answer to the billions of questions you can't stop asking when this happens? i never have answers
Posted by Maggie at 6:09 PM | Comments (0)
<3
PsychoNeal: wench
magwin: listen, this is hardly the 17/1800's and i am hardly wearing a dress and girdle
PsychoNeal: What are you wearing?
magwin: a brendan costume
PsychoNeal: that is hot
magwin: i get that a lot
PsychoNeal: You get that you are hot or that wearing the brendan costume is hot?
magwin: please....lets be serious here for just a second.....the brendan costume.....honestly.....
PsychoNeal: I tend to prefer the Mags without the B costume--but...vOv
magwin: riiiiight
PsychoNeal: Believe what you want.
magwin: umhmm
PsychoNeal: mmhmmm
magwin: bah.
PsychoNeal: You're cute.
magwin: riiight
PsychoNeal: Believe what you want.
magwin: you know what, three pharases? 8)
PsychoNeal: mmhmmm
magwin: wh0re
PsychoNeal: Believe what you want.
magwin: aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!
PsychoNeal: You're cute.
magwin: youre maddening.
PsychoNeal: I am like a disease.
magwin: herpes?
magwin: congestive heart failure?
PsychoNeal: Hmmm....Herpes--I like the sound of that.
magwin: you may well be the first person in the history of the world to have said that
PsychoNeal: Cool...I like to be the first to do things
magwin: what *kinds* of things? [you may want to shy away from kristi then.....]
PsychoNeal: What is it now...88--or 89 if Nick counts...
PsychoNeal: Isn't it sick that I remembered that?
magwin: um.....nick doesnt count
magwin: and yes it is
magwin: but you remember a lot of odd thigns
PsychoNeal: Yes
magwin: it disturbs
magwin: me
magwin: especially cause it leads me to believe that you may remember dumb/scary thins that i say...............
PsychoNeal: You're cute.
magwin: eep
PsychoNeal: Yup...I probably will.
PsychoNeal: How do you feel about that?
magwin: that you remember things? disturbed.
PsychoNeal: Really/
PsychoNeal: ?
Posted by Maggie at 4:34 PM | Comments (0)
digitalpr0phit: sooooooooo, that couple didn't
digitalpr0phit: sooooooooo, that couple didn't appear to work out, but I wonder if there is other people with interesting opportunity
digitalpr0phit: *rubs chin*
Posted by Maggie at 2:47 PM | Comments (0)
February 1, 2003
so...beth wrote a very good
so...beth wrote a very good and detailed entry describing the events of yesterday.
here are the highlights according to me....
well, really just one.
beth wendy and i were having a sidebar next to the window. and rose said 'he just opened his eyes!'...being that it was rose, his eyes were closed until proven otherwise. beth scurried over...and said that, in fact, his eyes WERE open. we all crowded around where he was looking, said hi, who we were and that we were here type stuff....he kept looking around. later rose said that she told him to squeeze her hand, and he did...so...i had been leaning over and saying 'its maggie grandpa, im here....we love you' and things like that all day, and rubbing his shoulder or his leg or something....and once i leaned over and said 'grandpa, its maggie, can you squeeze my hand if you can hear me?' and he did.
he died about two hours after we left. rose was with him.
i will miss him so so much....he was one of the most amazing men i have ever met in my life. and it saddens me that my husband will never meet him [whoever it turns out to be] and my kids wont meet him [though, i mean, i really didnt *think* they would...realistically...the man was 68 years older than me...] but still...i feel sad that other people wont be able to experience him, and have him in their lives....cause it is a real loss.
i am lucky to have known him, and have known him as long as i did...and to have been able to love him and spend time with him.
Posted by Maggie at 5:25 PM | Comments (0)