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October 15, 2002

sarah sarah.....something something....something somethin good bye

sarah's perspective regarding the fact hat i have been contacted in two different media informing me that i need to meet with someone re: my exams

Perhaps you'll get a candygram from them to bypass your illiteracy!

chants:
we just want you to know
that your academics suck--sooooo...
sings:
you need to come in
and be met with a grin
and we'll tell you how
you should study now
so you won't be a failure ever again!


that girl, she cracks my shit up


sarah just sent me the following in an email
I am immortalized! Now I just have to learn the cardiac cycle and then I can take over the world!
By the way, you may or may not care, but I would like to start using this phrase, from what I think is a typo on the first line of el journal: "fact hat"

Maggie: Take your fact hat off already!

**if youre like me, this really didnt mean anything to you. and if youre like me, you and sarah email each other a lot and get shit done....so, you email sarah and ask what in the name of mike that means....and she tells you the following:

Like we were going to speak with an oracle. So we would light candles and go in to inquire with the fact hat, asking it to answer our difficult questions and channel our dead uncles and things.


this has aparrently become the unofficially official singing the praises of the amusements of sarah......

I think that one of the reasons we are able to communicate to such an entertaining degree is that we're both wordophiles and enjoy using fun phrases (such as "transient inspiration") and making up words altogether when nothing else will do. Some people really don't get into that. For example, Bridget has terrible vocabularly (she's honest about this and has said it herself) and I tried to say something about ramming information down our "gullets" and she didn't know what a gullet was and accused me (quite harshly, I might add) of using obscure words. My imaginary friend Susie was an English major, and upon consultation she (of course, being imaginary and all) agreed with me that gullet was not obscure. However, Bridget can draw stuff like nobody's business, which I don't even pretend that I might be able to do someday, so it all evens out. However, what I'm trying to say is that I enjoy these exchanges in part because the nuances get noticed. Comprende?
All of my wordular data is interpreted, even the finer points, rather than tossing out all the data except that which related to the general point.

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October 14, 2002

other realizations

i spent 4 years at iu. thats a lot of time. i met a TON of people there...i had a decent amount of friends....im trying as hard as i can to think of everyone...but...i really dont think that there are more than 3 or 4 people who i would honestly be seriously distraught if i lost contact with. i have some 'friends' from undergrad that im not even sure that i like. it is hard to say if this is more due to the fact that i dont like them or that the majority of these people show a complete disinterest in who i am and my life. realistically, i suspect that it is both, and that it is a vicious cycle where they feed off of eachother. indicnetally, this is not just since graduation....but even at school.

i had some friends who i told that i got into uc--my 1st choice med school....they were so goddamned nonchalant about it, you would have thought i said 'hey, i won a 20 oz. sprite' though, i would not be surprised if they reacted with more interested to the alleged sprite situation.

there are a hand full of people with whom i would like to remain close, but would not seriously feel a loss in my life if they werent a part of it anymore

the interesting thing about my "high school friends", actually, there are several.....
1) they consist of kristi, george, brendan, tony, dan, dave, neal, nick (& mike)---of these 8.5 people, i had met 4 before i graduated [at least, that i RECALL]--i just think that is weird
2) there is a freakish car thing among most of these people, allow me to elaborate:
eclipse, some car, (old) bmw, acura, mustang convertable, viper, grand cherokee, vette (& truck of some kind) respectively....that is unusual!
3) drastically different places everyone is going in life, again with the elaboration
accountant, chemical engineer, film in some way, mechanical engineer/patent law, ????, evil millionare [computers], law enforcement, medicine (& who knows) respectively.....the one unifiying thread is the overwhelming dorkiness....which i totally dig.

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interesting realization....im stupid

in h.s. i applied to 4 colleges.
i got into 3
2 offered me pretty big scholarships
guess which one i went to???

thats right, the 3rd, withOUT the scholarship--silly me

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OH MY GOD

1) caught up in phys
2) caught up in biochem
3) went to all classes
4) stayed awake in all classes

this is unprecidented, i am not sure how to proceede....well, thats a lie, im behind in embryo and micro, and what not.....

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October 12, 2002

i'm stealing from bill

musical memories...neat idea...

oct. 6, 2001 At Your Funeral--Saves the Day
driving on 71 S to go back to Bloomington from Dayton, talking with my sister and bawling about Mr. Irwin's death. this is soemthignt that I still don't understand, beth says to me "Maggie, they say that some poeple are just too good for this earth" don't think i will ever forget that

spring 2001 Alcohol--BNL
in my room in the Willkie Apartments. Fucked up. put this puppy on play and danced around my room and sang....drove visitors out of the apartment...but then, Jake hardly counts.

Dec. 26, 1994 What a Good Boy--BNL
this is the 1st BNL song I heard. i was sitting in a hotel room in florida with 3 others [the only one i remember is erin mcbride, oh, and kathy fluitt] getting ready for bed--band trip. it was on a mix tape bill gave me for christmas....when i asked him about the band, he thought i wouldnt like them...tee hee hee

summer of 1984 or 1988 Africa--Toto
in the car on the way to NC with the Lees

summer 1995 A--BNL
in the car with kary and beth on the way to NC listening to beths boom box, as the car did not have a cd player...we were tryin to figure out what all the words are

oct. 5, 2002 Cover of Its The End Of The World...--REM
at a bar in mt. adams with dan and jen....dan grabbed my boobs. noteworthy part was the look on his face

spring 2002 Summer of Drugs--Soul Asylum
walking across the bridge near the ballantine garage on my way to one of 85 billion classes in ballantine my last semester

september 2002 It's Raining Men--no clue
blasting this shit with jen and adora and singing with the windows open partially in the quasi ghetto on the way home from the amwa dinner

July 7, 1997 Shoebox--BNL
they came out, kary and i were in front [clearly] at the r'n'r hall of fame...ed looked over at us smiled and gave us the nod

oct/nov 1997 indigo girls CD
making out with pete at my parents house...

1997/1998 the Everything is Wrong CD--Moby
being in st. louis...visiting bill.....

fall 1996/spring 1997 The Old Apartment--BNL
this came on 107.1 out of cincinnati, was the first BNL song i heard on the radio...the song was crackly and i could hardly get any reception....i was driving the blue honda stopped at Clyo and Franklin, sitting in the Left turn lane of Franklin--to turn onto Clyo and go home


i know that there are a lot more, this is just the ones i remembered after i just woke up....

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October 11, 2002

i <3 hearts

going to dayton tonight, out to dinner with mom and dad, mike and barb and grandpa. i emailed amy, maybe she and i will go to soft rock...yay karoke!

shocking bit of news: i havent gotten as much done lately as i would like?! i know, i know....i hope anyone reading this was sitting down

ghetto blood drive update: day 5
yep...bruise still there. its getting to the icky blue and yellow phase, and it has now extended laterally all the way to my actual elbow--ok, well, to the nasty skin covering my elbow--i just never can ungrossify that

speaking of gross....in my gross lab we dissected out the heart wednesday, we will be actually dissecting the heart today. ok....so.....for those of you who dont know, embalming fluid does not get blood out of the heart. i hadnt thought about it, but, there was no blood anywhere else in phyllis--for the most part--so why would there be in her heart?? why?? well, who the hell knows. but, it was congealed in gross gross ways. sarah and i [aka: team preen] were working on phyllis's heart, was a little grody.

have decided that 8 am classes are evil--incase it wasnt clear that i thought that before

i wish i had interesting things to say, some people have more interesting journals....

my laugh occasionally annoys me....this is not good. i do the initial single laugh outburst....then i usually giggle.....or i....words cant even explain.....
for instance, yesterday in micro lab dan took his ocular [eye piece] off and looked at a slide that way. this is funny because 1) it hardly magnifies anything and 2) he and i have mocked people doing this before. the reason that he did this was because he was having trouble orienting himself with respect to the slide...you gots to know what youre lookin at....thats all im saying....ANYWAY, i busted out giggling. this was my 'hardly any sound but confvulsing and tears' laugh.....this, of course, caused dan to laugh some.

another note about dan: before lab yesterday he said something derrogatory to me [this is status quo] but it was something about an elephant in some way. i was about to go 'so dan, are you saying that im fat?' [which, we all know i am, but that is hardly the point at hand...] before i can do this, brett--at the next table--goes to dan 'dan are you saying shes fat? id be careful dude' then matt--at our table--says something to that general effect. i dont remember the rest of the specifics HOWEVER what it boiled down to is the whole class agreeing with whatever stupid thing it was that i was saying, or rather, siding with me. dan yelled and said not to encourage me...but it was great. people yell at he and i for being loud, but no one talks to us except matt, ryan, jen and brett--we got people in the far corner chiming in. which, really, is a testament to the fact that we are loud, but, whatever....it was neat

bethy is helping me edit my death and dying paper....i dont write well. and oddly enough, i felt comfortable with her reading it [this is atypical for me] also, shell keep me honest in the things i write. she already caught soemthing that i did not remember. but she said she got teary reading it, i feel that!!

productive....be productive


lets get physical, physical
i want to get physicaaaaal
lets get into physical
let me hear your body rock



seriously, on jens jane fonda tape they do not have physical by olivia newton john. and they call themselves a respectable 80s work out tape!!

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October 9, 2002

3 days post blood drive

so, they insisted that the woman would be able to get blood from my left arm....it has left me debilitated, unable to work, whose going to feed my children??

besides that...they asked even more scary questions about sex...have you taken drugs or money for sex since 1977 [i was born in 1980, cant they just say ever? but this is a standard question]--no
have you had sex with anyone who has taken drugs or money for sex since 1977--no
have you been to africa [rattle off countries, one of which is nigeria]--no
have you had sex with someone who has been to nigeria--no
have you been to eastern europe--no
have you been to eastern europe and stayed for more than 5 years--ummmmmmmm, no.....
have you taken factor for a clotting disorder such as hemophelia--no [who is that retarded anyway??]
have you had sex with anyone who has taken clotting factor for something such as hemophelia--no

and on and on and on.....
after we get done...i realize ive had sex with someone whose been in nigeria....however
1. not totally sure, as the kid is/was a compulsive liar
2. dont want to fuck with that shit

the part i enjoyed the best is that they take your pulse while they ask you all these weird sex questions. i dont care how chaste and virtuous [like me] you are, anyone will get nervous and their pulse will skyrocket...and they wonder why mine was high!? i mean seriously folks!

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October 8, 2002

hilights from the pub crawl

1. showing my moon/star tattoo to a girl in my class, weird older guy comes and feels it by putting his hand in my pants. he says you can feel the texture and see how long someone has had a tattoo.....he alleged my tattoo, which ive had over 4 years, was new.

2. appear to have stolen an ashtray

3. got some free beverages

4. talked to a lot of people i hadnt talked to before, or talked to them more than i had before

5. one of the bars was playing a lot of prince music...there was dancing

6. poor steve, he was my drunken dialee...and not only that, but he was my DEPRESSING drunken dial....

7. was fucked up by 11

7a. was sober enough by 1 to drive home

8. didnt vomit

8a. jen may or may not have vomited

9. truly realized that i only fall for people who would never be interested in me....be it me in particular, or people like me......wondering if its one of those 'set myself up to fail' kinds of things

10. pics of friends now 8)

11. gave blood, didnt really eat dinner, i know, bad, but, got drunk off of: 3 shots of absolut mandarin mixed with sprite, a too rummy rum and coke, shot of tequilla, part of a smirnoff ice [were now into drinking other peoples drinks territory], part of a coors lite, and a vodka sunrise....and, for all of that beverage, i spent $5....yipee!!
i renig...thats a lot....dont know how i was standing....

12. dan alledges that i am a better dancer when im drunk....well, probably not better, but, more fun anyway

13. dan kept spitting his tequilla sunrise on my shirt at the last bar....not only was it unnecessary, but also it caused me to be asked if i vomited after i went to the bathroom....actually, it was probably just to irk me, i would do something like that to bug someone, dan and i are freakishly alike, so, by the transitive property of maggie...he was just being weird

dont remember anything else of note from last night....dan grabbed my boobies again, but, im guessing, youll have that....im sure the pics will tell of exciting times....keith took a pic of the line for the womens restroom at one bar, beth gave me a little kis on the lips at another for tellin her where the bathroom WAS.....all around, interesting night.....dan had a friend who said to him something to the effect of "nothing like tomorrows physicians getting fucked up today"--seriously, you would have thought we were a bunch of 18 y.o. kids away from home for the first time, there was making out, there was grinding in ways i have never seen before, it was GREAT



**note: hoxworth blood drives are ghetto blood drives, do not go to one!!

***also note: lt. *** was not there, he was not invited, actually, because of the ghetto blood drive i didnt call him as i was asleep on my couch....thats my story, and im stickin to it

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October 6, 2002

ld

lieutenant *** called. which is good. talking to jen i decided that if he didnt call tonight he was permanently on the shit list and would be unable to go back....was REALLY goin to stick by it

he called! 8) invited me to red dragon in newport. have raging headache and 8 am class--movie at 945. not goin.....he said that he and i would go to a movie later this week, offered to see one hour photo with me, as he knows i want to see it--anymore i basically just want to see it on principle....i told him about the pub crawl, he asked if it was just for med students....asked if id call him tomorrow and said hed like to go if it was kosher....it is, in fact, kosher, i just need to decide whether or not i want him to come. dan will be there, and dan has made his stance clear, i dont want an altercation....so.....we shall see.....

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death dying and grieving

i have spent the last hour and a half writing the first draft of a paper about death. i chose to write about bob irwin and my grandma mechlin. very different dying experiences. bob irwin has made me get choked up a few times in the last year [he died at 12:03 am oct. 6 2001---aka, a year ago today]....that was probably the hardest death i have dealt with....he was too young and too good of a person to die...but i havent cried about grandma for a while.
to summarize, not a fun paper to write

went to biggs with jen and adora earlier.....stopped at banana republic "on the way", happened to run into lt ***. introduced him to the girls....he was looking hot, of COURSE [pin stripe pants, need i say more??] jen said she thought he looked like a model, adora commented on his eyes. chatted a bit. he asked them about how exams were....i dont know, i think he is a very good listener and a very thoughtful person.....invited them to the movie tonight. blah blah blah. he was going to call when he got off of work...that was an hour and a half ago. if he does not call tonight that is the end of it, im serious! i dont think i am in the mood to go to a movie now, but that is hardly the point at hand.....

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the lieutenant

Called me this morning on my cell
Woke me up--confused, of course, i never wake up not confused....
get to the cell.....too late
Phone in apartment rings
Ok, to be fair, it was 1pm
Asked me to meet him at boston market for lunch
Said I had woken up.....would need 30 minutes
He said wed do it another time when I had more notice
Asked about exams
Asked about what I was doing today
Asked if I had seen red dragon
Said steve saw it and liked it
Asked if I wanted to see it tonight
Said he may call to of his friends
Said hed call me after work--at 6--and wed see about seeing the movie

The question is---should I go?
I told him I had to write a paper (which i do--additionally, i need to clean my apartment), so I have an out, I could say I was having troubles blah blah blah but i dont know what i want to do.

he said something about calling 2 of his friends...i always am nervous around new people....always.....who knows.......


thank god for g dub

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October 5, 2002

weird night....quel surprise?

as per usual, went to a bar, less than normal occurances

--friends talked about compatability with another friend, "you two should get married" and so on....in jest, i know, but, its the 2nd time it has happened in as many days with this kid
--guy i went to h.s. with [whose in my class, who i dont think knows that we went to h.s. together] may or may not have been hitting on me b[i dont think he was....but i feel as though he comes out better in the end if we say he is--less like a total and random idiot]. he came over and sat beside me at the bar and started talking, how was i doin, how was the posse, etc.....kid was not sober, this is true. so, being the way i am, i just started talking. what came to mind was the cool belt i was wearing. its one draw back is that the buckle is a large star which pokes my fat when i sit....i said that it 'impails me' and he started talking about something about how that shouldnt matter and how im an attractive girl and how i should strut my stuff and some other stuff [i know, this sounds totally weird, but, for those who know me, we know that weird weird shit like this happens--ie: todd and adam the night todd got kicked out of bears] anyway, seriously. said several times that im 'a good lookin girl' and so on.....then--and this is, incidentally, not a joke--said 'how you doin' in the manner of joey. i assume that he was doing it as a joke....but who knows. he then asked me to go play pool, i said i sucked. he said get a partner...grabbed dan and keith and we went with him, some guy who looked like the guy who shit in the trash can in van wilder and ressa or soemthing--an indian guy in our class. played pool. the kid from h.s. was like falling over and shit. unbelievably drunk. i think he offered me smokes 4 times in an hour.....i dont know. it just made for a weird weird evening....which, for me, weird is status quo....


footnote: the tabuleh is gone...finally....i LOVE it...but....it was a lot of it. it was GREAT though 8)

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October 4, 2002

more quotes

you cant do that...we will be watchinq, weve got like nuns & they come with rulers.
--dr. Drake re:touchinq cadavers during the practical

not intRAstrand...that'd be like masturbation

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dont be naked

last night--dan comes over at 3. we go to barnes and noble. study rather dillagently till 8. forage in the forest like a primate [aka--drive to chipotle]. arrive at the luxurious msb and get started at 9. i put my foot down in the car--we are not staying past 3--like we did on tuesday. dan points out that this is CLEARLY a pipe dream of mine. alright, 330. dan inquires as to how half an hour makes a difference. i say 4 and he has no choice. get there. study. study with others around. acquire a jen. study study study. at 12 szlvia, amy and jeremy leave to go to bed--we found this nearly laughable. at 2 kinda cute guy ryan leaves to go to bed--we concurred with this, as he had passed his last practice test. study, realize its 330, inform the peanut gallery that we will be going soon. finish practice test, realize its 420 [a time that didnt go without mention, dont worry] get the show on the road. drop jen off. get home, drop dan off at his car, park my car, get upstairs....its 5. sound asleep by like 520.

guiness book of world records says:longest amount of time maggie has studied in a day--14 hours + 2 hours of review session

guess who is taking a nap after biochem??

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October 3, 2002

"this just keeps getting interestinger and interestinger"

steves take on the weird things that have been happening this week:

maggie and _____ sitting in a tree, k - i - s - s - i - n - g first come disection then comes flash cards then comes walking in white lab coats with a baby carriage :)


of course, he is being deliberately weird and strange, as per usual....but....i dont know......

i would like to again ask why things are convoluted in this life?

on another note...had an incident with a friend last night. i think that in the long run things are OK but i feel like a wh0re.....i dont know.....wasnt neat......

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October 2, 2002

its exam week. for those

its exam week.
for those of you not in tune with the wonderful world of the UC med school....we do not go by semesters or quarters [no med schools really do] we do our own thing, which is basically 7 units of material. at the end of each unit is a week of exams--akin to finals....except there are 7ish in 9 months.....this week is the first

synopsis of my week:
monday--ankle grabbing at the hands of micro anatomy
tuesday--lack of lube from physiology
wednesday--fucked in the ass by gross anatomy....[footnote: poor phyllis, her left boob was cut in half transversely by us, for the practical her right boob was cut in half vertically...all im saying is....couldnt the cuts have at least been parallel!?!]

the earliest i have gone to bed since like friday is 3 am. last night i came to the msb to study in the micro lab [w/jen and dan]....got here around 8:15-ish....gave up and went home at 3:20-ish...thats right...5 hours. got to sleep at like 4:45, little studyin when i got home, little shittin around, little tv. alarm at 930...snooze...etc, got out of bed at 10. ate breakfast today [a rarity in the world of maggie]--toast with butter and grape jelly, YUM! and OJ [with pulp...i know, im livin on the edge]

on other weird food related matters, i have been on a high tabuleh diet [i know, beth insists its spelled 'tabouli' in my world, its tabuleh...anyway], mom got me some from the greek isle deli--3 orders in fact--monday, midnight snack. tuesday, lunch. tuesday, dinner. tuesday, midnight snack [well....330am snack]. my GI tract does not know how to handle things like parsely tomatos and onions, fried foods, all over it, not fried, not pizza products...all bets are off. dont take it the wrong way, "things" are a-ok...just weird

im in the med library at the msb now...my big brother just came by and said hi....asked how exams were going....i explained that i dont much like tests, not sleeping or studying, he wisely commented that i probably chose the wrong profession. i can see where one would draw that conclusion...but, whatever. why must he be cute??

over and out--to purple couches for rondezvous with jen and dan and progression to margarita/fajita night at don pablos.

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October 1, 2002

" your being nostalgic for times when life was more carefree"

i was talking to jen and dan about marching band the other day....i was home today....along with some excellent tabuleh, i got my high school marching band videos. i just spent like 80 minutes watching those......i miss it a lot...not so much the running around, but, the feeing on the field at a big competition, teh friends, so on and so forth. i seriously was in the coolest marching band ever.....yay wayne markworth [see also: they might be giants, rock to wind a string around]

deicded i MUST make a CD of my band songs.....have NEVER been able to find more and more by blood sweat and tears....the sweetest boy ever, brandon found it! as well as several others. he is SO my hero...you have NO clue.....thanks brandon!!!!

best on the field memory: end of the show, finals, nationals, my senior year. we were in a triangle pressing forward, i was just goin to town, it was low, just 4 quarter notes, D, C, B, A----it was GREAT!! a judge walked by at that time, stopped, came back, and said something like "OH YAH!" it was clear it was "about" me.....oh my fucking god!!! words do not even begin to describe

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