July 30, 2002
karoke gone terribly awry
just got back, form cozumel--well, technically, still in cozumel, ship is docked there for another 30 minutes...however, we are back for the day. Did some awesome shopping. Two rings, two bracelets [as gifts], necklace [as gift], t shirts [some for me, some as gifts] and pendants for necklaces. Great day!! Drank a yard of sex on the beach at a bar calledcarlos & charlies with my parents, mom had a peach margarita and dad had a regular margarita...mom drunk BOTH of us under the table.very very bizarre mom doesnt so much drink. On the elevator a couple got on and said they were 'goin all the way' and mom said 'I just hope you dont do it on the elevator'oh for the love of god. My MOM said that--well, someone joked that it may have been a joke and not to be embarrassed by her or something?dunno
anyway, last night-->karaoke. Did birdhouse in your soul buy tmbg, with kary. Of course, was done poorly. However, I didnt really feel as though I had a choice, ive never seen another tmbg song for karaoke...ok, more later, shower is free
Posted by Maggie at 8:22 PM | Comments (0)
July 27, 2002
OTNEMEM
"the present is trivia which I scribble down as fuckin notes"
ok, so you know how on airplanes you can?t listen to cds or whatever during takeoff and landing?? Because "it can interfere with the navigational instruments"? Ok, well, a) this is a load of crap and b?it has gotten worse. When we were on the plane from Dayton to charlotte NC today they told people to even turn off PDA's. I mean REALLY!!a palm pilots electrical magnetic field is goin to mess up navigation of the plane? What would it do, take us to Vancouver, BC in lieu of charlotte, NC?? If that were a possibility all im saying is that I dont want to fly on that plane ANYWAY!.if a frickin PALM PILOT will mess up the instruments on the plane, then the plane is shoddily constructed and I want no part of it.
found 2 soft contacts today, that was a surprise. Now, they are different brands and textures and I don?t know which should go in which eye, however, I went out to Walgreens to get soft lenses solution--apparently you need a different soaking soln due to the fact that soft lenses are hydrophobic, so, I couldnt use my soaking soln for my gas perms. Anyway, im taking the soft lenses on the cruise in lieu of the hard b/c 1) more comfy and 2) should something happen to one, it is-essentially-financially negligible. Think that whenever I end up getting contacts again im goin to go with the soft lenses approach. Now, admittedly back when I was 10 my optometrist put me in rigid gas perms because they slow down the degradation of your eyes, and can even make them better--this has turned out to be true, the last time I saw my doc my left eye was better than it was the time before. Of course, my right eye had gotten worse, but hell, we need variety I guess!?!?!
it astounds me the way that one thing you learn about one person can totally turn you off to them. There was a boy that I thought was hella hot and I wanted to make out with and what not, then I learned something about him and I no longer want to. Based on the person at hand, this is quite a revelation due to the fact that I was willing to pay money for another friend to work this out?..
so, here is something else astonishing, in class, nick swears more teaching than I do. Now, the weird thing about this is that in day to day life I swear up a storm-im trying to limit this usage of four letter words, however, its as hard a habit to break as shooting up?.ANYWAY, nick doesn?t so much swear hardly at all.and in class he swears more than me. Who woulda thunk??
so, im excited that I was able to teach myself WAY WAY basic html earlier this week. Allows me to be able to type entries in word with dates and times and post them later, and all I need to do is copy and paste. Yeah baby, yeah!
well, nothing else to report.had a hankering for a cappuccino today--ok, well, I dont so much drink coffee, have never craved it before, this weirded me out. But, whatever...the guy at the starbucks[yes, I went to starbucks, it was the only thing in the airport].was a nice kid...so, whatever
passed out
on the over pass
Sunday best in broken glass
broken down from bikes and bars
suspended like spirits over speeding cars
you and me were kings over the parkway tonight
and tonight will go on forever while we
walk around this town like we own the streets
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat
singin 'every body wake up, every body wake up its time to get down'
and when I pass the bottle
back to pete
on the overpass tonight, I bet we laugh
Im gonna stay 18 forever
so we can stay like this forever
and well never miss a party
cause we keep them goin constantly
and well never have to listen
to anyone about anything
cause its all been done
and its all been said
were the coolest kids and we take what we can get
the hell out of this town
find some conversation
the low fuel lights been on for days
doesn?t mean anything
ive got another 500 nother 500 miles before we shut this engine down
im gonna stay 18 forever
so we can stay like this forever
and well never miss a party cause we
keep them goin constantly
and well never have to listen
to anyone bout anything
cause its all been done
and its all been said
were the coolest kids and we take what we can get
stay 18 forever
so we can stay like this forever
and well never miss a party cause we
keep them goin constantly
and well never have to listen
to anyone bout anything
cause its all been done
and its all been said
were the coolest kids and we take what we can get
just jealous cause were young and in love
just jealous cause were young and in love
just jealous cause were young and in love...
Posted by Maggie at 10:01 PM | Comments (0)
July 26, 2002
further reflections
just a weird weird situation....
ive been thinking a little more about last night, i am still hella perplexed by it, but, fuck, was fun....
went to bills with kristi tonight and ran into some of beths friends...was a little odd, they asked how she was doin[and one had a man purse]...blah blah blah...kristi and i rehashed old war stories
*footnote: bills has the best donuts EVER....there were a few people there saying that they were in town from texas and that bills was one of the places they HAD to visit, because of the quality donuts....
so, at work this week i taught myself a little basic html. im kinda excited about it, it allows me to be less blah with my entries, although i am still mostly blah. and ive always thought i should know more html
leave for the cruise in less than 48 hours...
there is something bizarely attractive about jason schwartzmann, i mean, he has eyebrow problems but still...and i think that i kind of like phantom planet but, id need to listen to them again as the time i saw them in concert i was falling asleep--worlds longest show that wasnt designed to be a "festival" type thing...and they were being complete tools, definately seemd as though either the guitarist bassist was on smack--i dont remember which one it was though
big thanks to shelley for the ego boost--she said that the last entry sounded just like me and that she could hear my voice and see my gestures. now, this may be bad--cause i know i can be obnoxious--HOWEVER, its nice to know that im getting my message across correctly 8)8)
till later...
Posted by Maggie at 11:21 AM | Comments (0)
July 25, 2002
pancakes in london
so, these are the sorts of things that i thought would occur last night:
-i would teach
-probably talk to the "simpsons boy" after class about movies and books
-i would go home
-wash my hair
-shit around
-in bed by 12....
what really happened was:
-taught class
-talked to the "simpsons boy about books and movies after class"
-get a phone call from ****** during class to say that a friend of ours from hs who now lives in london is in town for a few days, do we want to meet him and his brother at soft rock
-called ****** back, rsvp'd soft rock, made arrangements to pick her up
-went to soft rock, ended up being just the 4 of us...
-****** spent much of the evening talking to the brother of the boy from london...with whom she has a wee history, this lead to...
-me talking quite a bit with the boy from london, we had good convos, was neato [strange though, i have been friends with him for seven or eight years, but have never really talked to JUST him for an extended period of time, and we talked for quite some time, about lots of stuff...]
-look at watch, notice its 1140 and we were going to leave at 1130
-decide to stay a little longer, shoot the shit and what not
-get into a discussion regarding mormonism with the boy from london
-adjourn to the exterior of the bar because its too loud to think, hear, or talk
-talk about mormonism, the real world, big brother, life in england, canada, the simpsons, etc
-****** and the brother show up and say they are leaving
-the guys ask if ****** and i want to go to their house to play pool (its now 1215)
-the great indecision of 2002 ensues with, as usual ****** finding SOME way to make it my decision solely [as per usual]
-decide to go to their house
-get to their house
-go in search of their old pin ball machine with the one who now lives in london [noticed it was no longer in basement, inquired, talked of my sisters lust for pinball, went looking]
-****** and the brother arrive
-uncover the pool table and rack the balls
-everyone avoids the pool table
-get the boy from london to play with me
-my belligerence was moderately flirtatious [aparrently, note...this is foreshadowing]
-his brother announces that the loser should lick the winners nipple [i thought this was bizarre]
-half assed 'who what now's from me and the boy from london
-as is to be expected, i lost
-his brother told me to lick his nipple
-he jokingly came over to me and lifted up his shirt
-i licked his nipple
-he was gesticulating at the time so really it was mostly his hand
-he and his brother insisted i do it properly [meanwhile, ****** is just sittin in a chair laughin at everyone]
-i rectify the situation with the "misplaced lick"
-he puts his shirt down and laughs
-he looks at me funny
-his tongue was then in my mouth....for a while....
-****** and the brother noticed this rather briskly
-****** and the brother went outside
-more of the kissing....
-and more of the kissing....
-blah blah blah
-ungodly loud knock at door
-****** wants to go home [i drove] and the brother was going to drive her....
-look at watch (after 2am)
-decide that, since i slept 4 hours the night before, worked 11 hours and needed to get up at 630, id leave too
-gather belongings [purse and what not]
-go to car [note: this takes a surprisingly long time, there seem to be kissing and what not stops along the pathway for all parties involved....
-waiting at car for ******
-boy from london does more kissing....
-boy from london [and now this is the shocker] unzips [and i was not the unzipee.... and what not when were at my car waiting for other two.....
-other two come
-finally get ****** in car
-go home
-agree that much more conversations about the whole evening in general must occur [between me and ******]
-go back to my actual house.....which still smells like pancakes from the quesidillas [sp?] from dinner
the truly astonishing part of the evening was that i made out with this boy! ive known him for seven or eight years, not seen him in a year or longer, and there never was anything there really prior to last night [at least not to my knowledge]...the liquor consumption was minimal, i dont know, very very thrown off guard. if someone said to me that i would end up making out with one of those two brothers, i would have bet on the OTHER one [even though i would never really make out with him because i associate him with ******, not the point] this was very surprising to me on several levels...
....however, something being surprising is certainly not to say that it is bad....
Posted by Maggie at 10:06 AM | Comments (0)
July 24, 2002
fun with voicemail
blah.
thats about all i have to say, blah.
the voice mail system at my day job has an option to speed up or slow down the messages. i was listening to a message way slowed down with dan and said that it would probably be a good idea for me to get something like that just for day to day stuff....to put over my mouth, since i have [often] been called a "fast talker"
he suggested that i return to my desk and leave him a voicemail and that we would then play with it. and i asked what i was supposed to say, his response was
i dont know, recite the constitution or something....
well, i dont KNOW the constitution, so, in my infinite chemical dorkiness i ended up leaving a message saying
well dan, i dont know anything about the constitution, however, i do know that the first two rows of the periodic table are hydrogen, helium, lithium, beryllium, boron, carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, flourine and neon
that doesnt make me a bad person, does it??
no, it doesnt, just one with issues....
Posted by Maggie at 3:32 PM | Comments (0)
alpha car
ok, it is official...i am a BIGGER chem dork than i thought i was....when i got into work this morning i parked my car in the same lot i always park in, when i was putting money in the box i noticed that my cousin's car was parked next to mine....HOWEVER my thought process was NOT
ok, well, i am parked next to my cousins car NO NO!! in fact, what i thought was my car is alpha to amys carfor those of you who are "hip to the lingo" you see the problem....alpha is a term used in organic chemistry...you usually refer to the alpha carbon, the alpha carbon is one NEXT to some functional group. if you have an acid (COOH) and you actually have C*H3COOH (acetic acid) the C* is alpha to the carboxylic acid C (aka, the other C)so, you can see wherein the problem lies. this is not a good thing.reason# 84 why it is important for me to go on the cruise soon: gets me out of chemistry modeok, so, for those of you who arent reading this, here is the cute *** update. saw him last night. was in the same room with him for SEVEN hours...thats right. SEVEN. i do NOT get that kid. HOWEVER, i am proud of myself, because i engaged in what i would call a "ballsy" maneuver (*note: not ballsy overall, just ballsy because it is coming from me -- i am, as the kids would say, a chicken shit when it comes to things regarding boys)when we walked out to our cars, he said to me at one point, something to the effect of---oh, no, i remember how it started. he said he was shocked that i would help him out so much for free [figured it out, if he were to pay for all the free one-on-one help i have given him, it would be over $1000 for him--now, mind you, i would only see like $200 of it or something, but it would have cost him over a grand]. and i explained that he isnt stupid and he isnt bitchy, so its fine. then he asked if insert name of company i work for here knows i stay and help so much...then he hesitated and was like...if they did, they would probably charge me...and i said, yah, if they knew they would probably actually be pissed...and THAT is when i explained that he is neither stupid nor bitchy. i thought about saying "well, youre cute, so it doesnt matter" in a joking fashion...but was afraid that wouldnt go well....OK back to the point at hand. he said that he "is more fun when hes not doing chemistry" so, my ballsy response was "ok baby, do you wanna go make babys in a non chem fashion then??" no no, my ACTUAL response was "well, we should do something more fun some time" or something like that. for those who maybe dont know, me making that statement is a lot for me....and he said that he would show me around **** **** [where i am moving in 2 weeks--he lives in the same city, different part, but same city] later..when i had time. i said that would be good, and that id get him my new number when i know such that he could gimme a call...[i wouldnt want to call him, that is just the way that i am] he said he already had my cell number, and i said that i was going to get a new one, change it from an XXX area code to a YYY area code when i moved...and he thought that made sense.so, where is all of this going? i think we can all agree that there is SOME level of ambiguosity in the statement. however, through a careful path of immense over analyzation...i have concluded that i think he is just a nice boy and sociable and maybe feels like he 'owes' me something cause of all the free help i have given him. but, CLEARLY, more likely than that is the possibility that he wants to make babies....he said last night that he wanted to be a GP of some kind, cause otherwise you cant have a family. now, i KNOW that we are talkin down the line here, however, you dont find many 22 year old guys who are worried about having families...footnote: i thought he was actually a year older than me [23-ish] but based on something i was saying about a friend last night--he asked me how old my friend was who owns the viper and i said 22 and he said 'so, our age' so, i guess we are the same age--end footnoteok, well, i got nothin...i chose, at this time, to cease over analyzation processes. have instructed steve to concoct a scheme to make cute *** realize that i am the greatest thing EVER...based on how effective these types of schemes USUALLY are, i am hopeful for the outcome *dripping with sarcasm about the effectiveness of hatching evil plans*though, for some reason cute *** thinks im smart....and here is how i know. my sort of humor is dry and self depricating. so i [very clearly sarcastically] referred to myself last night as a 'genius' and he jumped on that and said that he really was truly impressed with how smart i am, yadda yadda yadda...because i have been able to answer all of his ["10 hours worth of"--where a good chunk of the time was REALLY socializing or, as he says regarding the time, "hangin out"] questions...well, i dont remember it like that, i remember the ones that i CANT answer, not the ones that i CAN--and i can see why he would remember the ones i CAN and not that i CANT so anyway...he thinks im smart...at least i got one thing goin for me....
Posted by Maggie at 9:08 AM | Comments (0)
July 23, 2002
purity of Au
death bed love letter is a song by kevin hearn. what i like about the song is that it goes 'youre here forever / in the death bed love letter'
now, admittedly this diary probably wont be here forever, and im not in an isolation unit at princess margaret hospital waiting for a bone marrow transplant...BUT, its moderately tangentially related and i like it...and stuff.
i am a firm believer that the addition of 'and stuff' to the end of any argument will grealty strengthen the argument. in fact n'stuff is more effective than 'and' stuff....be sure to utilize that.
when they call something 18 karat gold or 24 karat gold...it is based on percent BY WEIGHT...not mole fraction or anything. just remember that....and we assume that if something is 100% Au, its is 24 karat, something that is 70% Au is, in fact, 18 karat [70% can be made from an alloy containing .6 mol Au and .6 mol Cu]
dont worry, thats over
yum food
Posted by Maggie at 11:44 AM | Comments (0)
July 22, 2002
WTF?@?!!?!
OH JEBUS!
cute ***, aka, johnny ambiguosity [thats right, ambiguosity, not ambiguity, the word ambiguity is dead to me], has done it again.
tonight he asked me where i was goin to live when i moved, and i told him. he then said that his sisters bf was leaving for a year and he and some friends are essentially goin to rent it. he said, "id totally offer it to you, but i dont think youd be able to get anything done....since itll be your 1st year of med school, i think that will be a problem" and thats all that he said about it. OUT OF NOWHERE he says this. i already have an apartment. WHERE IS THIS COMING FROM. i dont know what this means. and then after that, he asked if i had signed a lease already...and i said no. OH HOLY HELL.
foot note, have come to realize that i just may be as oblivious as some of my friends who i mock about their oblivuosity [made up words are underrespected in todays society].
ANYWAY, so, i dont know what is going on. it occurs to me that MAYBE he could think that i am uninterested based on the way i behaved a few weeks ago. HOWEVER, i didnt want to overstep the bounds of my job and misconstrue things or whatever. especially based on the job i dont want to make any assumptions. it does also, however, occur to me that maybe he isnt interested. if he is not interested, he certainly has poor communication skills [kind of like the girl at *vertigo* with *****]. but, he is a very socially non-inept, so you would think that he would know how to not be weird and confusing....AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH.
its getting to the point where i need to be contented with mass perplexion or grow some. i dont see either truly happening. i suspect that i will just *deal* with mass perplexion. i dont know...i suspect that the situation will be much more elucidated circa aug. 17....i just hope that there is still a "situation" at that time...hes a cool kid, and i think he would be a good "friend" but, that wouldnt be my first choice...
WILL SOMEONE PLEASE JUST GIVE ME _*ONE*_ CLEAR SIGN AS TO WHAT IS GOING ON?@?!?! JUST ONE!!!
Posted by Maggie at 11:24 PM | Comments (0)
July 21, 2002
XXX
ok, so, i dont expect XXX to be a fine piece of cinematography. any movie whose title would inherantly make someone think of porn will probably not be good. HOWEVER, you better believe its on my 'to see' list...vin diesel....in [mostly] sleeveless shirts with tattoos on his arms!!
well, fuck me im seein it!!
Posted by Maggie at 11:58 PM | Comments (0)
laziness to the extreme
i officially did nothing today. NOTHING. i was in my jammies till 9 pm, at which time i took a shower [to wash my hair for tomorrow]....i find that washing my hair the night before is better...1-no hair dryer needed 2-i can sleep later 8)8)
although, i am quite excited for tomorrow--i dont teach in columbus!! that means, i can sleep as late as i want, shit around, and whatever!!! i am going down to cincinnati tomorrow night...but whatever.
dave attell--funny guy, allegedly he knows he wouldnt like being gay because he fell off of a ladder once and a cucumber went in his ass 3 times and he didnt like it. weird fella
t-minus 6 days till departure for ft lauderdale. t-minus 7 days till commencement of cruisular activities. starting to get excited...havent really been too excited before now due to the fact that i dont know anything about what is goin on and where and when...there will be snorkeling and shopping and a day on a beach with an open bar...thats all i know. **note to self: de-paist-ify in caribbean
im popular tonight! i always knew that if i waited long enough id be cool....almost famous tells me that people who arent cool can be cool*...ok, im not that out of touch with reality, dont worry 8) must go and im those in other states.
*and we all know movies are known for their 100% accurate and non-exaggerated portrayl of lifePosted by Maggie at 11:26 PM | Comments (0)
the family porn shop
im watching 'mr show' again, there is a mom and pop porn shop and their 'kid' just was hit on the head with a colossal black dildo cause he was supposed to put it out last night and didnt do it yet. well, jebus. quality. fucked up shite like this, i dont know where it comes from. i mean, i know that i am not creative in these kinds of ways but, i still dont get it. jack black is in a few 'mr show' episodes. its jack black in the pre-god should strike him down days.
yay for hot boys. however, NOT yay for hot boys being so goddamned weird. for those in the know, there is still a finders fee...you know who you are and what im talkin about 8)8)
i wish i had more to share/report.
"keep it down, theres people tryin to masturbate down here"
-- mr. show, a character played by bob odenkirk
bought 2 lip glosses and a wee bottle of nail polish [with "glitter" red hearts in it] for under $7 tonight at meijers...yipee fun.
bed time.
Posted by Maggie at 2:56 AM | Comments (0)
July 20, 2002
those darn catholics
catholics are crazy. i have known this all my life, have been raised with this "fact" however, today i realized it more. i went to a catholic wedding. the wedding started at 2 and i left at 7-->my aunt, the other woman i left with and i were among the first to leave. AFTER FIVE HOURS. and in the wedding they said, and im quoting, "and god bless our president, george w bush" ok....riiiiiiiiiiiight.
danced with a boy i grew up with, it was fun. we decided to do weird-ish shite for the amusement of [mostly my] parents...dipped, i twirled him, dancing with weird faces, and so on..it was fun. i swear to god, i know moderately attractive [at best] gay men who get so much more action than i do, i just do NOT quite get it....
watching the 'mr show' dvd loaned to me by a student, its funny. its with david cross [what *i* remember him from is just shoot me, as eliots brother, and newsradio as one of the guys in the barber shop quartet] and bob odenkirk [who ive never seen before]. anyway, its funny.
ok, well, blah blah blah and shite.
Posted by Maggie at 8:04 PM | Comments (0)
July 18, 2002
kids and frats and brand new, oh my [now, i know this is the 2nd or 3rd time ive used this "form" o
so, im excited to report that there is a kid in one of my classes who shares my penchant for weird movies. he is, officially, the only other person i have met who enjoys _vanilla sky_ so, thats neat. also recommends chuck palhinuk [sp] books....so, hes good in my book.
so, steve says he didnt realize i was 'anti frat' so, i explained that im not anti frat, per se, its more that im anti what the frat system has become. and, as steve points out, its more anti greek than anti frat. and here is why: the advent of the greek system was intended to be something to promote friendship and community and philanthropy. currently, it promotes drinking, smoking and fucking--all the important -ing's in todays society. and, thats fine, fun is good, but i just think that the point has been lost in recent years. and i dont necessarily hate frat boys and sorority girls [aka, sorostitutes--listen to the song 'naked sorority girls' by palo alto, well, they dont use the term, but its hilarious] i just wouldnt be friends with most of them. they are just not the type of people i am attracted to. i dont know.....
jon stewart is funny. and cute. i remember wanting to cuddle with him back in his mtv days...8) god bless the daily show
is that what you call a get awaytell me what you got away with
cause ive seen more spine in a jelly fish
ive seen more guts in 11 year old kids
have another drink and drive yourself home
i hope theres ice all over the roads
and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield
Posted by Maggie at 11:09 PM | Comments (0)
lusting for livejournal
in an act of fickleness which can only be spawned from me, i have decided that i no longer [im not kidding, i just changed my mind about this in the last five minutes] want n-heptane.net, i just want a livejournal account. thats all that i want. cause, i can do what i want with a live journal account for free....but i need a fucking pass code from someone who is a member.
OH FOR THE LOVE OF GOD.
"the whole fuckin worlds against us, i fuckin swear it"
--name that movie??? [and remember, i *approximatley* quote most of the time 8)]
**footnote: this is clearly from another site, CLEARLY, all my dreams have been realized now
Posted by Maggie at 11:05 AM | Comments (0)
website and brand new
so, i am one to use lots of VARIED colors. i would enjoy using a different font than this here, as well as a different b/g and what not. however, my knowledge of html is non-existant, so i am left with this as an option. so, i set out searching for someone to host just a website for me.
it turns out that i dont care enough to pay for anything, and as the wise bill says on HIS site, the ads/banners are obnoxious-->wanted a free site with no banners. ok, i have found like 4. the one that i actually liked, which you didnt have to pay to register a domain name didnt have n-heptane.com available [actually, n-heptane.com takes you to something about a band called n-heptane...there are bigger dorks than me in the world!!!] and not n-heptane.net or whatever. i found one site who would have hosted me for n-heptane.net or .ca [which is canada, and if anyone doesnt know, im a canadianophile] however, its $50 to start and then $36/yr for the domain name. well, as i am fickle and prone to flights of fancy, i know that i wouldnt be able to maintain an interest for that long, so its not worth me spending my meager earnings on that....now mind you, thats just a few hours of work [god bless the princeton review and what they pay their teachers] but thats still not the point, that is at least one purse and several lip glosses as well. so, blah.
very excited the other day when i finally burned the _brand new_ cd. justin [to whom i never speak anymore, im guessing that he did NOT die though] sent them to me ages ago, and i jsut now did it...with my new cd burner it didnt even eat my ass, so, thats good. and ive been listening to the cd a lot lately. i highly recomment seventy times 7. its a great song. so, ive been listening and singing along and what not, and when i was teaching last night i was nearly getting confused because seventy times 7 as well as another song [whose title i dont know, i only know the one cause i just went to www.brandnewrock.com to figure it out!] and they were so stuck in my head that i couldnt think clearly and nearly ended up saying words to the songs in lieu of 'and the oxygen of the alcohol does a nucleophilic attack on this electrophilic carbonyl carbon' this type of thing was an issue SEVERAL times. luckily, i held it together 8)
i set up electricity for my new apartment today, it went siginificantly easier than i anticipated. which is always good....the only problem, when i called the cable company, the number no longer works....now, for anyone who knows me, i cannot live without cable!!! this would be, as the kids say, a travesty. so, i called the lady at the apartment building and she gave me the new number--thank GOD...8) HBO is 11.95/month. *tear* well, when six feet under starts again im either going to have to pay the money, or make friends with someone wealthier than me. as we learned this year, my parents cant necessarily be trusted to remember to record shows properly....
ok, well, thats about it, and remember kids, check out the band brand new if you havent already.
Posted by Maggie at 9:02 AM | Comments (0)
July 17, 2002
clearly, not a date......CLEARLY (i think, regardless of last time, there definately was not one
well, i suppose that the great 'was it a date' debate has been resolved.
we were goin to go to a bar tonight, and we didnt. after i saw him he rushed off to god knows where and never once mentioned the bar-ular discussions. additionally, during the event when i usually see him he fell asleep. i was talking, and he fell asleep. and afterwards he ran away. the shortest amount of time that he has stayed after said 'event' and hung out--prior to tonight--was an hour. tonight he was out before everyone else even left. WTF IS THAT??
now, the sleepting leads me to believe maybe he was tired and wanted to go home and sleep--additionally, he was wearing a hat and jeans, hes usually a khakis and hair gel kinda guy. however, i was dressed in a different genre of clothes this time--and maybe he took that to mean that *i* thought that it was a date and that was not his intent so he wanted to avoid debauchery.
i dont know, but, believe you me, i will be over-analyzing this...now, ordinarily, i wouldnt but steve told me to, and who am i to argue ?? 8)8)
Posted by Maggie at 12:02 AM | Comments (0)
July 16, 2002
bug bites and soundtrack
to many bug bites--3 on my face. i dont know when i got them
the soundtrack to my life would have [but is not limited to] the following songs:
American Hi-Fi *Flavor of the Week
Bloodhound Gang *Discovery Channel Song
BNL *Alcohol
BNL *Box Set
BNL *Jane
BNL *Shoebox
BNL *Thanks That Was Fun
BNL *What A Good Boy
BNL *Who Needs Sleep
Brand New *Failure By Design
Counting Crows *Round Here
Dashboard Confessional *The Best Deceptions
Dire Straits *Romeo & Juliet
Geto Boys *Damn It Feels Good To Be A Gangsta
Gob *Desktop Breaking
Goo Goo Dolls *Iris
Guster *Fall In Two
Guster *I Spy
Indigo Girls *Galileo
Indigo Girls *Ghost
Indigo Girls *Kid Fears
Palo Alto *Naked Sorority Girls
Prince *Get Off
Prince *Little Red Corvette
Prince *Purple Rain
Prince *Sign O The Times
Red House Painters *Have You Forgotten
REM *All The Right Friends
Rufus Wainright *Hallelujah
Saves the Day *At Your Funeral
Saves the Day *Certain Tragedy
Saves the Day *Shoulder To The Wheel
Sheryl Crow *Kiss That Girl
Stroke 9 *Down
Third Eye Blind *How's It Gonna Be
Tracy Chapman *Bridges
Tracy Chapman *Cold Feet
Tracy Chapman *Fast Car
Tracy Chapman *Less Than Strangers
XTC *Dear God
Posted by Maggie at 2:13 PM | Comments (0)
shitty work
so, i consulted yet another source discusing the incident and whether or not it was a date. the person to whom i was speaking asked if maybe cute *** should bring a sledge hammer with him next time...tee hee hee!
so, i guess we'll find out for sure tonight
ok, so, im going to lament for a minute here--> i have a shitty temp job. i knew it would be a shitty temp job, however, all im saying is, i have a bachelors degree in chemistry, and all i do during the day are shitty things like make covers for binders--like three and four times, cause he decides he wants them different, make dividers for binders, print spread sheets--these are the things that i do in a typical day. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH. hes lucky i dont kill him! it is so goddamned frusturating. and to think that everything must be explained to me, i dont CARE what an iso certification is, just tell me what to print...grr...
Posted by Maggie at 11:14 AM | Comments (0)
July 14, 2002
my god i spent a ton of money
if you can get the chance to see the robin williams special on HBO, HIGHLY recommended. “jesus was an only child, and thank god, cause who would want to be jerry, brother of jesus. can you imagine! ‘cmon jerry, were goin to go to the beach’ and jerry would say ‘ah mom, jesus is going to go to the beach and walk on water and cure people and make food and im goin to sit there with a rash and sand in my butt’”
went to target today and spent $279!! got a vacum, like 5 lights, the royal tenenbaums dvd, cute mirror for my entry way and so on.
at bed bath and beyond i got a door hanger for cds....its cool. got 3...this means that i had to sort through my cds, i only have 146 now. but, i had needed to get rid of a bunch of them anyway. but whatever, i like it, they look cool.
robin williams says 'fuck' more than *i* do--well, that is true, but also more than anyone i ever met.
"many of you men have never opened chardonnay under fire...........and you throw it and say meat or fish"--robin williams!
nothing interesting today besides spending tons of money....
if you can get the chance to see the robin williams special on HBO, HIGHLY recommended. “jesus was an only child, and thank god, cause who would want to be jerry, brother of jesus. can you imagine! ‘cmon jerry, were goin to go to the beach’ and jerry would say ‘ah mom, jesus is going to go to the beach and walk on water and cure people and make food and im goin to sit there with a rash and sand in my butt’”
went to target today and spent $279!! got a vacum, like 5 lights, the royal tenenbaums dvd, cute mirror for my entry way and so on.
at bed bath and beyond i got a door hanger for cds....its cool. got 3...this means that i had to sort through my cds, i only have 146 now. but, i had needed to get rid of a bunch of them anyway. but whatever, i like it, they look cool.
robin williams says 'fuck' more than *i* do--well, that is true, but also more than anyone i ever met.
"many of you men have never opened chardonnay under fire...........and you throw it and say meat or fish"--robin williams!
nothing interesting today besides spending tons of money....
Posted by Maggie at 10:07 PM | Comments (0)
books & boys & look alikes, oh my
bought two new books today: _choke_ by chuck palahniuk and _high fidelity_ by nick hornby. intend to save both for the cruise. additionally, i have 2 new douglas coupland books. well, ive read them before, but each was read in one day multiple years ago, i just got the books for myself recently. so, the cruise should kick ass wrt reading!
today my cousin says to me 'so, is ******* the one who you say looks like matthew lillard?' and i explained, yes, but i think its more of an slc punk m.l. rather than scream or what not. i showed a friend the case for slc punk tonight, she agreed that he looks like slc punk m.l. [minus the blue hair, of course] i dont know, its just strange. ive never seen anyone who looked at all like matthew lillard....
thats the interesting thing, everyone looks like someone famous in some way [now, maybe they look like a cartoon character, for instance i have several friends who look like mr. burns--in differnet ways from e/o--and i have a friend who i think looks like jay sherman] but most people look like someone. i really dont look like anyone. i think its kinda strange. except, carl thought i looked like the chick who played the shrink on _sopranos_ which, is all well and good, but i hope that im not that jowel-y when i grow up. i mena, he didnt think i look like her, but that i WILL look like her when im that age.
heard from my sister 8) shes gettin settled in, will see her bf soon. so, thats good. it is still just astonishing to me that she is in austrailia for six months.....thats such a long time and so far away, i personally wouldnt have had the balls to be gone that long, im too much of a homebody.
so excited about my apartment at school. t-minus 27 days till move in.
ANOTHER person i was talking to about cute *** told me yesterday that he thinks that the boy is likely interested. i know that stewing on this does no good and that there is no way that i will relly figure it out unless i ask or he puts his tongue in my mouth or whatever, but still...i worry. i got skillz wtih the worrying.
sleepy now.
Posted by Maggie at 2:00 AM | Comments (0)
July 13, 2002
yay canada
you know, canada is under-respected in contemporary american society. canadians are nicer than americans....many of them are cute--some have bad teeth, but theyre cute
*this message brought to you by the fact that the guy in charge of karoke tonight looked like canada matt...well, not looked like so much as reminded me of...and canada matt is cute, so, thats ok 8)
also, canadians have words like 'toque' [see 'canadian dictionary']
i want to marry a canadian when i grow up 8) actually, i can think of 2 americans that i wouldnt so much mind marrying either, even though theyre not canadian 8)
also, they put '-our-' instead of '-or-' in words, and our is cuter [favorite-->favourite, etc]
Posted by Maggie at 3:22 AM | Comments (0)
what the fuck is going on?
the wierdest week ever...EVER!!!
tonight i was [quoth the kid involved] 'hit on'. well, i am 22 years old, and the last time i was 'hit on' was 23 years ago. [for those math wizzes present, this is another way of saying 'never']. this kid is, mind you, cute..dimples, whole 9. but, it was fucking bizarre. he insisted on buying my drink when i ordered another. he was complimentary to me in ways i havent been complimented before. he was nice. all that stuff. it weirded me out more than you can imagine. the kid actually asked me if he would 'get in trouble' if he 'hit on' me. by 'trouble' he meant smacked. it was just so fuckin weird. he told both me and my cousin that he thought i was 'sexy'. not even my ex's have told me they thought i was 'sexy'!?!?!? cant tell you how bizarre this is....words cannot begin to express. and then, when we finally went to leave, he asked for my number. i really dont so much want him to call, but i dont know how you say 'no' to something like that. so, i gave him my number, will be interesting to see if/when he calls.
additionally, the kid was poking me in the side, i kindly asked him to stop poking my fat, and he insisted it wasnt fat. so, on top of whatever else, he is just delusional...i dont know what is going on, some weird portal to another universe has been opened and it perplexes me
been ponderin the cute *** situation more....if my oblivious friend thinks that he is interested, that strong leads me to believe that he may well be.
Posted by Maggie at 2:01 AM | Comments (0)
July 12, 2002
why arent boys intentions clear and actions equally so??
if the most oblivious person i know thinks " if I had to bet, I would say he is interested in you"-->doesnt that seem like a strong indication??
johnny oblivious then also commented that
"you seem very wary of allowing yourself to accept the possiblity that he may be interested"
if you saw how HOT this kid is and how not hot i am....and you knew how long it has been since a non-depressed fat man expressed anything that could potentially be interpreted as "interest" you would be too!!
must consult dave, who initially told me like a week or so ago that the kid was asking me on a date, before hand, so, ill have to discuss with him.
i want to be less neurotic when i grow up 8)
so, all i need to do is figure out if this guy is interested--in a subtle way such that if he is not, work wont become weird and/or awkward *and* such that if he IS i dont LOSE my job.....and if hes not, i need to figure out what has been going on, cause actions seem to indicate interest, and if he IS i need to figure out what to do from there...im not a patient person, but, i suppose that i could wait till august....
"cant seem to remember to forget you" (random movie/song quotes are my forte....they usually are tangentially related at best)
Posted by Maggie at 12:38 AM | Comments (0)
July 11, 2002
to date or not to date, that is the question...actually, its not, the real question is WAS it a date
well...im at work now. so, youre thinking to yourself, gee, if youre at work, why are you writing this? and my answer is 'i got here at 7am, worked for an hour and have done SHIT the whole rest of the day, thought i would do SOMETHING not totally boreing'
so, i *think* that i MAY have gone on a date recently...but i do not know for sure. i have only discussed the evening in detail with two people, one says that it is more of a date than it is not a date and the other says that i should ask the kid if it was, but not for another month or so...i mean really...can people not make these things clear in this day and age? for the love of god! so, i have spent the last day or so trying to decide for myself whether or not this 'event' was, in fact, datular in origin. and i have no idea. there were definately some things that made it seem as such. some conversation topics and some things that were said and the WAY that some things were said....however, the alleged goal of the occurance did keep coming up. we went somewhere to do something, we were at the place for 2 hours, for maybe 20 minutes we did what we talked about doing...does anyone else think that ratio is a little out of whack?? i dont frickin know...
i finally got phone service set up for my new apartment [t-minus 30 days till i move], i have a number which i think is easy to remember, so, that is fun.
about the date, all im saying is that if someone who never picks up on any clues of any kind thinks that maybe it is a date, doesnt that certainly cause one to think that it very well may have been a date?? if someone that misses any and all signals thrown at him, hears about the situation and thinks that it may have been a date...well, i dont know.
the boy in question from the other night called me today while i was at work to ask me a question. this is the most trivial question anyone has ever asked me, i certainly do not think that it merited a phone call...does that mean something? probably not, if you know me then you know that i totally overanalyze things...i got skillz [thats right! skillz with a 'z'] i mean, if you talk with someone and you both say how you never wanted to marry a doctor and in all likelihood you will BOTH be doctors, and then he says something to the effect of 'well, you fall for who ever you fall for, you should just run with it' or something like that....doesnt that CLEARLY mean that he wants to have babies? 8)8) CLEARLY
ok, well, that is the only interesting thing going on, and i dont even know whether or not it is legitimately interesting!! OH FOR THE LOVE OF GOD.
if anyone reads this [im guessing no] and they have thoughts on the situation or would care to be talked at regarding this potential quasi date, drop me an email.
Posted by Maggie at 2:40 PM | Comments (0)
July 7, 2002
communications and sales
it is earth shattering how bad i am about communicating with people. shelley has sent me a letter and now emailed me and i havent gotten back to her yet. as i recall, katie called me around fathers day and emailed me and im'd me and i still havent gotten back in touch with her.
the only people that i contact are the ones i always contact. it awful. i really need work on that.
if anyone is reading this and i should be getting in touch with them, just know that im thinkin about ya...
got a great deal on a swim suit today...so, that is neat. i need to get some sort of beachular satchel for the cruise--that is only like 20 days away!
found a very cute purse today for $6, it has stars on it! 8)
you could look forever for someone like mePosted by Maggie at 11:09 PM | Comments (0)
July 6, 2002
beautiful mind
"I need to believe, that something extraordinary is possible."
i enjoy a beautiful mind
in dayton there are a shocking amount of trashy commericals for strip clubs....
so, in three days my sister goes to austrailia for six months....SIX MONTHS. thats a frickin long time!!
i was elected 'food wench' today [this means i was told that i was goin to steak and shake for dinner] i was at a 4 way stop and to the left of me was some kid rollerblading with a helmet and pads and what not, and he was pushing a cage on wheels. and in this cage on wheels were 2 or 3 birds as well as some furry cureature--which i suspect was a ferrit or squirrel or something.....either way, it was bizarre
dogma premiers on comedy central tomorrow...i suspect it will be about 63 minutes long and you will hear MAYBE 1 in 3 words....but this is must my guess....
wish i had more to say, but i didnt do shite today....essentially slept till 3 then read and what not.
actually, im reading _survivor_ by chuck palahniuck [aka, writer of _fight club_]....its quite interesting, to say the least....
it appears that there will be a 2nd season of beat the geeks...this means that it was renewed, this means that enough people liked the show that it was worth renewing....a bit shocking. i mean, dont get me wrong, the show is amusing however for only about....4 minutes and 8 seconds....
ok, well, c'est tout.
Posted by Maggie at 10:36 PM | Comments (0)
karoke at soft rock
so, sang 'alcohol' by my boys at karoke tonight. was fun. i am, by any account, 97% tone deaf, luckily amy is 97% NOT tone deaf 8)
so, this guy in a 10 gallon cowboy hat sange 'devil went down to georgia' he did good stuff...was probably 35 or 40....well, about 30 to 45 minutes later he came over and asked me to dance with him when some chick was doing 'time after time'--was BIZARRE. i told him i dont really dance, which, incidentally, i dont, except when lots of ROH is involved...or im at a place FOR DANCING. it was flattering, however, i was caught totally off guard....
soft rock has like 10 bnl songs....that is so quality!! and AND they have good boy! possibly my fav bnl song [and if youre reading this, you know me well enough to know that i dont have FAV songs...i like too many too much to have favs]... it is the first bnl song i heard [12-26-1994] and it holds a special place in my heart
i just saw a koala being artificially inseminated on animal planet...disturbing. you dont want to fuck with a koala though, they seriously have razor sharp claws. theyre so damn cute!!! oh, koalas have 'tails' its mostly a nubbins [in a non-nippular sense] but they DO have a tail....
i like fuzzy animals, theyre tryin to see if the spermies took, theyre sitting the koala like a person and poking and prodding, the lady koala is just kinda lookin around and staring at the guy who is doing this to her, its cute. if you are not intimately familiar with the way the pouch of a marsupial works, id look into it, it is very interesting....different than what i thought. you can open teh pouch and look directly into the baby koala fetus.......
and on that note...gnite
baby koalas live in their mommys pouch for ~7 mos after they are born. the virtue of this is that mommy koalas make an enzyme which is a disinfectant.
ok, get this...koalas have a big problem with clamadia [sp?] which causes conjunctivitis and something else -itis [which has to do wtih urinary tract infections and tailular issues.
this is neat, if you ever see a special on koalas on animal planet, you whould watch it, thats all im sayin.....
Posted by Maggie at 1:19 AM | Comments (0)
July 5, 2002
little less cynical than before
decided to write SOMETHING again--mostly cause the previous message is so cynical that we shouldnt open up to that. nothin a little shopping wont cure....heres the depressing thin about that.....i wear size x in jeans. these are jeans that traditionally run small. i went to eddie bauer today and to get shorts that fit i had to get x + 1. would it KILL people to make womens sizes the same?!?! if you buy a brand that traditionally is small, you dont expect to have to buy a size bigger at a store where sizes are fairly right, a little big if anything [especially in shirts, or maybe i just never wear shirts that fit appropriately]
dave attell is funny
thinkin about watchin 'clerks' quality flick. little slow--took me about 4 tries to see the whole movie cause i kept falling asleep. one friend of mine joked that if he were to recast 'clerks' he would put another friend of ours as veronica/ronnie [aka, dante's gf]
got my new pda
also got $25 off my next cell bill--yay for being with kristi when she signed up with verizon
blah blah blah
Posted by Maggie at 8:15 PM | Comments (0)
canadian dictionary
lovehatedreamslifeworkplayfriendshipsex
toque: canadian word for a winter hat, pronounced 'touk'
Posted by Maggie at 1:36 AM | Comments (0)
good vs. evil
in a small battle between good and evil, evil won, fucking hot. not only did i end up changing clothes but i also shaved my legs such that i could wear shorts--which i hate.
wish i had something witty to add
--youre attractive and your rich, im drunk and im from ohio......
--youre not from ohio
--i know
Posted by Maggie at 1:36 AM | Comments (0)
mass confusion in my noggin
for real.....i dont fucking get it. there are some things in life that just cannot be explained. well, rather, maybe they can but i just dont like the explanation.
must figure shit out.
note to self: try to put off first heart attack until after at least 35
Posted by Maggie at 1:26 AM | Comments (0)
July 4, 2002
the ORIGINAL orange
its not that i want to be dan when i grow up, its just that orange is my favorite color and he stole it from me....
im stealing it back.
only those with self crocheted [often pronounced 'crotch-eted'] orange scarfs are deserving of the orange
i feel as though i should learn to spell gooder. i dont know that people would have a lot of confidence in me as a doc if i cant spell. well, i mean, my grammar sucks, but thats a whole other issue....
Posted by Maggie at 3:41 AM | Comments (0)
/\/\/\
so...ive been meaning to get on something journal-ular for quite some time. most of my friends are part of the live journal cult, however, blah blah blah, this was easier. god bless laziness
was joking with my cousin a week ago about organic molecules and she asked if any looked like my name...well, no, but i write my initials so they look like this:
/\/\/\ [well, KIND OF like that]
and that molecule is n-heptane. i was encouraged to utilize that as a screen name or something at some point. so, im a big dork.
all im sayin is that i have just about had it with members of the opposite sex. if you intend to ask someone on a date, make that clear. if you ARENT doing that, then dont suggest things in a way that MAY be interpreted as a date....note to self: get a clue. in addition, note to a boy i know: you get a clue as well.
idiots
i wish that everyone [except me] wasnt an idiot. its hard being me.
god bless sarcasm, without which i would not be able to communicate
quoth amy regarding an incident where in a dancing setting when a girl put her rear region in a boys nether regions, if she DIDNT want to dance "she had poor communication skills"
watching vanilla sky.
additionally, highly recommend the soundtrack.
jason lee--he will be mine, oh yes, he will be mine.
Posted by Maggie at 3:34 AM | Comments (1)